Relapse
Posted: Sun Nov 17, 2013 9:46 pm
Relapse
I hide my face but I’m
crying out for help
and all I want is to
sleep it off again
in a chemical haze.
Can’t you hear me
can’t you see me
standing in the rain
falling from my own
slipping, angry mind.
I don’t care, I don’t.
Be blind, don’t see
so I can be guilty
without the feeling
of a conscience.
Let me fall and be
unstable and free,
or chained, I’m not
sure which is which
where I am tonight.
In the morning I’ll
be better, put on
a new face so you
can forget and I
can forget that I
fell from the place
I crawled my way to.
I am animal in
the dark of night
and human only in
the harsh light of
an unknowing, or
just denial-ridden
and shameful, morning.
I hide my face but I’m
crying out for help
and all I want is to
sleep it off again
in a chemical haze.
Can’t you hear me
can’t you see me
standing in the rain
falling from my own
slipping, angry mind.
I don’t care, I don’t.
Be blind, don’t see
so I can be guilty
without the feeling
of a conscience.
Let me fall and be
unstable and free,
or chained, I’m not
sure which is which
where I am tonight.
In the morning I’ll
be better, put on
a new face so you
can forget and I
can forget that I
fell from the place
I crawled my way to.
I am animal in
the dark of night
and human only in
the harsh light of
an unknowing, or
just denial-ridden
and shameful, morning.