Stupid mistake
Posted: Fri Sep 12, 2014 5:32 pm
A long time ago I was traveling to work on the train. I had already been female for a few years. I passed 99% of the time. Sometimes kids could pick me. On this day two young school girls were standing beside me - I was sitting down. The young Asian girl said to the other, ‘So you haven’t had the operation yet?’ and the other girl replied in a male voice, ‘No I can’t. Not until I am eighteen.’
I was dumbstruck but thrilled at the same time. I couldn’t believe such a young TS was going to school as female. How the times had changed. Then I realised she was trying to make contact with me. I suspect she knew I was TS but I didn’t look at her or say anything. In my mind I said the most stupid thing to myself, ‘Sorry kid, you’re on your own, that’s just how it is for all of us.’ And ignored her.
I have been kicking myself ever since and wished I could turn back time to say hello. I remember when I was 15yo and wanting to meet an older TS that had transitioned if just to hear them tell me I was alright. That’s what I should have done for that young girl, but it was too late.
Ever since then I have wanted to provide support or help in some way for transgendered youth. I am a qualified counselor and now trying to make a more concerted effort to help transgendered youth.
I was dumbstruck but thrilled at the same time. I couldn’t believe such a young TS was going to school as female. How the times had changed. Then I realised she was trying to make contact with me. I suspect she knew I was TS but I didn’t look at her or say anything. In my mind I said the most stupid thing to myself, ‘Sorry kid, you’re on your own, that’s just how it is for all of us.’ And ignored her.
I have been kicking myself ever since and wished I could turn back time to say hello. I remember when I was 15yo and wanting to meet an older TS that had transitioned if just to hear them tell me I was alright. That’s what I should have done for that young girl, but it was too late.
Ever since then I have wanted to provide support or help in some way for transgendered youth. I am a qualified counselor and now trying to make a more concerted effort to help transgendered youth.